Growth

Growth reminds me of life’s journey. We all begin from nothing, developing from an embryo into a fetus until we enter the world. Our primary goal is to grow, and this process never truly ends.

When I think of growth, I’m reminded of my sons and the struggles we've faced with fertility. It's been a true privilege to witness their development at every stage, right from the very start.

I reflect on my own personal growth, acknowledging the need for continuous self-improvement. My growth is crucial not only for my development but also for guiding my boys as they carve their own paths. Every decision I make today—and every day—will resonate in their lives, shaping their experiences and the individuals they become. My choices act as a roadmap, equipping them with the tools they’ll need to tackle life’s challenges.

Amidst all this natural growth, I confront the unwanted growth of cancer within me. While I understand the essence of growing, now I must learn how to halt or at least slow down this aggressive growth. Unfortunately, there’s no guidebook to help me through this ordeal.

Every living thing on this planet experiences a life cycle: it lives, grows, and eventually dies. I grasp this idea quite well, especially after reflecting on it over the last six months. So why can't cancer fulfill its natural cycle and stop stealing my growth for its own? Why must I face the specter of death before my time, so this relentless cancer can thrive?

If only cancer were a person I could reason with. What would I say? Perhaps I would kneel before it and plead for it to relinquish its growth in favor of mine, so that I can continue to watch my boys flourish. Who will guide them? Who will provide them with the necessary tools if I am not here?

But alas, cancer cannot be reasoned with, nor will it surrender its hold. This means I cannot back down either. I must fight fire with fire. I have to be unwavering, for it’s a battle between me and the cancer.

And I will emerge victorious. Cancer lacks what I bring into this fight—my loved ones, my determination, and my personal growth, which have shaped me into the resilient warrior I am today.

All I desire is for my natural life cycle to continue. I don’t want to struggle for my growth, but unfortunately, I have no other choice.